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aku frustasi
aku tak dapat berpikir
aku cemburu
aku merana
hatiku berdegup kencang
kepalaku mau pecah rasanya
aku tidak tahan lagi
aku ingin loncat keluar jendela
aku tidak bisa hidup seperti ini
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aku perantau di negeri asing
aku ulat di sarang semut
aku pikir aku mampu
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another dollar for another cup of 1-Z-3.

Coffee. a popular beverage which contains a subtance called caffeine. can it be that this particular kind of drink is addictive??Well, research have shown that coffee is addictive in some ways, and i don't know what possesed me when i went to the Linbloom Student Center, headed towards the coffee machine, and started punching the combination 1-z-3 to get a nice warm cup of french vanilla mocha. So i'm not the kind of guy that are so addicted to coffee, but i'm afraid that i might become one.

Maybe i like to save money, but i also like to save time. Buying a cup of coffee in a vending machine is far quicker than having to stand in line and wait for half an hour just to get a cup of coffee, and be late for class, and it also cheaper too, the most expensive one in the vending machine is the french vanilla mocha, and it only costs like a dollar.

So let's say that i am addicted to coffee, if that's true, i only want to be addicted to 1-z-3.

True or False?? You stare at people when you like them.

it doesn't matter wheter it's someone you like, or a friend, or somebody you don't know, or even someone in your family. if you like somebody (in my opinion) you stare at them. Isn't it true?? even if everyone else thinks that that sombody isn't really cute or beautiful, if you like them, inside and out, you don't even think of these things anymore. You stare at people you like, well, okay, i'll narrow it down, I STARE AT A GIRL THAT I LIKE. if you take a look at my first blog, this is the same girl that we're talking about here. i don't know how i got attracted to this particular girl, but i'm guessing time must've got something to do with it, you know if you spend much time with somebody you start to know that person better?and when you know a person good enough you start to think that there's a connection between you two? well i don't know about you guys, but that is what i'm feeling right now.

Have you ever felt that feeling when you stare at somebody and the she/he stared back at you and then all of the sudden you feel very uncomfortable, but then after she/he looked away, you stare at that person again? this "caught in the act" feeling often occurs to me, i mean, it happened a lot, but my question is, does the person i stare at realize that i was staring at her? owh well, even if she does realize it, it'll make my life just a little bit easier.

What an interesting day it was !!

Friday afternoon. the weather was not bad, it was windy and it was cold, but it wasn't that bad. My friends and I decided to go to IKEA for shopping, we thought that we needed some things to make our room at CCA comfortable. We took the 164 to Kent Station. As soon as we arrived at Kent station, we had to wait for another 15 minutes til the 153 bus arrive. While we were waiting, something interesing happened. We saw this drug dealer, (or drug user, whichever one is it, we didn't really care) got busted by police, it was a sweet view, it was one of those events that you can only see on TV, the only difference was, you weren't watching any TV, it was a live event. So we actually didn't realize that there was a drug dealer there until we saw a sherrif car pulled over and parked right at the bus' lane, and when we turn around and looked to our backs, and there he was, with handcuffs on, and a policeman frisking him, that's when we realize that he was a drug dealer. So Danny took a video using his cell phone, so we can show our friends what happened. The 153 arrived and a second later, we were on our way to IKEA.

We were all excited. It was 3 o'clock when we stepped our feet in IKEA and started to look around for some things that we might need to make our apartments comfortable"We live on campus and we spend almost all of our times in the rooms, therefore, we must make our room the most comfy place on earth" said Danny, my most expressive friend.

We searched, compared, picked, and finally came to the end of our day in IKEA, when we reached the cashier, i looked at my wrist watch, and the tiny numbers on it indcated that it was around 6:30, we hurried up and payed and hoped that there's still gonna be enough time to reach the bus stop, because we knew (or at least we thought we knew) the last bus leaves at 7 o'clock. When we finished paying, i took another look at my watch again and it indicates that it's 7, we know that we missed our bus, but the crazy thing was, instead of looking for a different bus or call taxi or something, we just sat and start to order hot dogs, since it was very cheap. And then after we ate we marched outside and found that there were no more buses left, so we decided to ask some people, Nadira asked some people and then told us that we need to walk to Home Depot and take the 150 to kent station, and then take whatever bus at Kent station that goes to Auburn station or straight to GRCC, So we started to walk. we walk and walk and walk and we didn't see any home depot, So we decided to ask some more people. This time it was danny's turn, He asked a clerk at some gas station, but the clerk didn't know anything so he started to ask some customers, and they said the exact same thing-that we need to walk to home depot and take 150. We were not sure, so we decided that we need to ask some more people. This time, it was my turn, i started to ask some guy who was just pulling out of the parking lot, he explained how to get the kent station by car, he knew nothing about buses. I asked a guy at Subway and he gave me the same thing the other people gave danny and Nadira, so we decided to keep walking. We walked and walked, under the bridge, and kept walking, we walk for roughly a mile, and then there it was, the big orange sign that says HOME DEPOT, and a blue painted rusty bus stop thing standing right across the street from it. It was like finding our pot of gold, we were happy, i could see a frown on Citra's face suddenly fade away and turned into a smile, not a very big one,but still a smile.

So we rode the 150 to the kent station, and when we arrived at kent station, our intersting day wasn't over just yet. Somebody came up to us and offered us Weed, i mean it was so odd, cause he was trying to sell us weed as if he was trying to sell something good, i bet he didn't know that earlier that day a guy just got busted probably for doing what he did.

What the hell is wrong with me???

I absolutely have no idea what is happening to me right now, i am lost in my mind. swirming inside my own head, trying to find a way out. that's probably the best way to describe how i'm feeling right now. I know all of you guys have probably gone through this phase in life, so this is my story. Like any other stories, it involves a girl. this girl in my story is different than any other girls in my life, for some reason, we kinda connect to each other, i don't know if she feels the same way but i surely feels that there's some kind of a connection between us. All of these things i'm feeling right now is sort of confusing in some ways. I've only had 5 girlfriends my entire life, and i'm 18 years of age, so according to the world's opinion, i should have some experience with girls, , right?? WRONG, I have no idea how to deal this particular girl.Have you ever felt that weird feeling if you're near the person you like?that weird feeling that you kinda enjoy? but at the same time you hate? that's the way i feel everytime i'm near her.

First of all, i don't know if she has the same feeling i'm feeling right now.

Second of all, i don't know if this feeling is just temporary, time will tell eventually, but it's just the nature of men that we hate waiting, for anything, we do not like to wait.

So my question is : what is this feeling ?? is it just a fling? or is it something permanent?